The Sun’s Eye by Arianna X
As I sat down to write this, I had one intention: I don't want this to be any ordinary bio.
I want this word salad to transport the reader into my mind, if only for a moment.
My name is Arianna. I was named after Ariadne by my grandfather, my hero and my mentor.
Life has not been kind to me, but my grandfather gave me the gift of knowledge and guided self-awareness from a young age.
Nothing was off limits. Everything from stories of Magna Graecia (my homeland) and Ancient Greek Mythology to discussions of Carl Jung's work.
All the while reminding me, "It's brilliant, but remember: he was also a rapist and a Nazi sympathiser.
“Study, learn, but don't worship."
In 2022, I created Mother Wretched in complete secrecy. It wasn't meant for an audience.
It was a private archive of artwork, poetry, photographs, and fragments of myself.
A place where I could process the things I had survived. I accepted no followers and followed no one.
The work existed only for me.
So what changed?
In early 2025, I lost someone very dear to me. Someone I had protected at all costs.
Myself.
Not to illness. Not to time. But to another person's choice to cause profound harm.
Not to my body, but a version of myself I had spent years learning to love and accept.
I mourned her. I still do.
This is all in her honour. For the woman who befriended her sleep paralysis monster, Mr Scuttles in 2009 and then developed the ability to go flying in the dream realms on command, all while fully understanding that,
Hey... it might be a "gift," or maybe it's simply a trauma-induced neurological disorder and nothing more.
Either way, I'm okay with it.
I will meet her again someday. Slowly, slowly, she's gestating within me.
This piece was a glimmer of hope. The first time I triggered myself into sleep paralysis and took control of it after months.
I hovered above my body and looked down at myself lying there motionless. And just like that, a spinning golden eye appeared.
Both my physical and floating bodies started to vibrate with overwhelming intensity.
And the Sun's eye said:
"I can see you too."
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